I HATE BEING SICK!

Argh. Damn shitty la. Until now still haven't recover. So damn pissed la. And I have this one groupmate in my assignment group who is freaking annoying. Argh. And pms ain't helping. It's like stress+sick+pms+bad day, it sucks laaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Pfft.

Anyway, went to college on Friday to gao tim the food reviews for the student website project. Had to wait for Li Foong and Jia Huey first, so I went to DSA to have a chat with Mr. Loh. Apparently, according to Mr. Loh, he was quite surprised that I'm taking part in this project and that this project is actually quite huge.

Hmmmm. Doesn't sound huge to me. Well, that's how Gene's briefing sounds like la to me. Bla.

Yeap. Finally met the DESCO president, Gene. Zzzzzz.

Anyway, had fun on Friday la. Just hanging out with my few favourite people and FOOD makes me happy already.

Janson keeps stealing my lunch! Pfft.

Well, I keep stealing Li Foong's and Jia Huey's mac and cheese. Haha. Found another food stealing buddy. Other than Alric, of course. No wonder Alric and Janson are best friends.

Well, later that night, my initially good mood in the morning and noon turned sour. Thanks to that stupid group assignment meeting. One of the guys just had to be so hard to handle. The rest didn't want to go to college when there's no class just for meetings and he proposed the time of meeting for the online discussion, I want it earlier, but he said to be later. What the fuck, like I don't need to get my sleep to recharge my body for the trekathon on the next day??? Those people didn't join trekathon only ma so they agreed on it, 3 against 1, what chances I have, so I agreed on having meeting at 11pm.

Guess what? That very person is late for like 38, approx. 40 minutes. And another one of them forgot. Wth. Luckily there's still one reliable enough to remember and was early. But, yes, I did suggest about the online discussion, but even so, they agreed on it and there's no other ways anyway seeing that they refused to meet up for a meeting when there's no class on that day. Not my fault on that, right? And there he was, blaming me for not wanting a face to face meeting and want to cramp everything online. WTF! When I told him off for not wanting to go college for meeting when there's no class, he didn't reply me. WTH! So annoying.

And then, certain someone still dare to say have to make some sacrifice for the group ah, cause of assignments ah, for the score ah. Yada yada yada. If so, why not just go college even when there's no classes just for the assignment. It's plain bullshit seriously.

I may not be perfect, but seriously. It's dumb what they say mostly contradicts to what they said.

I may be also be wrong sometimes, but I'm not a team player who will just sit there and agree on everything. Like ok la to all suggestions and rejections. My own suggestion kena rejected, I want reasons for it. How can you just reject my suggestion cause don't want extra work on researching on it?

Anyway, I have told the other two of them (THE NICER ONES) this already. Except the other one who blamed me for decisions that I did not made alone. I took into account on his own reasons and then made that decision, and now he is blaming me for it? What kind of justice is that?

Diu.

I know they will read these and writing all these down might offend them or something. But this is facts, something true that has happened! Plus, that guy is welcome to deal this with me face-to-face like he wants it to be *rolls eyes*. Not like I want to speak to him casually anymore. I shall only speak when there's a need to, since the other two asked me to, for the sake of the assignments. And to think he self-invited himself into the group. And to the other two mates, sorry la guys. I'm the kind of person who will just say something straight to your face. Being too frank ain't good sometimes but I don't like to hide things inside. It's unhealthy.

And writing this down isn't just mainly bitching, I have the intention to let him read this anyway. Oh, and yes, also to bitch. Release anger maaaaa. If bottle up your feelings in you, you might go crazy you know.

Okay. Finished ranting already.

Anyway, went for HELP Sports Carnival's Trekathon event yesterday. With a flu and cough and fever. But still managed to finish it and got a medal for the Women Team category. Good job Department of Econs. HMC bunch were still rowdy as usual, miss HMC alot =/ And I never hide this fact from anyone, my friends from UEL know too. But Sanjeev all thought I like Main Block, zzzzzzzz, it's the people I miss la. Gawd. Once those peeps start coming to degree, I will start staying in Wisma obediently anyway.

Even one of the admin staffs for the Department of Econs, Kak Les knew I'm still attached to HMC. Haha.

Not something to be proud of though. But, I know somehow I will start being okay with UEL. Shall just wait patiently for that to happen. I took 2 years to adapt to high school, 6 months for HMC. It will happen somehow. Hmmmm =/



Hee hee. Silver. But I'm not that gleeful about this. Ain't any achievement also. Got 38th for the women individual category okay? Shrugs. Congrats to Vic for getting top 10 in that category though. Lol. Funny woman.

Hate being sick la. It's like the fever is making me dizzy and the flu is causing me nose block till it's like so freaking difficult to breathe. I finished my 2 packets supply of tissues throughout the race too. Bla. Had to use the leaves for substitute (shhhhhh...). Summore the argument in the group discussion the night before didn't help abit, pfft. Stupid wan, I memang want 9pm and then they want it so late. Like I don't have to sleep to get my energy and try to recover abit from my sickness is it?

I'm being damn bitchy now. Grrrrr. I probably might not even work well with those people as a team d. Not everyone of them la. Just that one particular person. Idiot. So old d summore like that. Summore is the oldest person in the group man. Thoughtlessly immature.

Hmmmm. I guess for now, I shall just focus on getting myself recover from this stupid fever, flu and cough. Sore throat is gone, thank God.

And after that, I need to care for my ankle more. Cause I suddenly damn semangat to go back into sports. Was retired from Taekwondo 2 years back. Kevin's offer actually made reconsider about quitting Taekwondo was the right choice or not. And I met my previous Taekwondo master last week, told him I stopped training. He looked quite dissapointed. Pfft. One more level to black belt, should I finish the whole thing?

Guess I shall just go check out the trainings on Friday and decide again. Let's just hope my ankle will be okay and is able to take this. I mean, it still feels funny everytime I finished playing any sports. Sigh.

Oh well. Guess the Orange Run is my next aim. 11km man. Longest distance for a run I have ever participate in. Some more in my worst condition. Cari pasal only la me. Shrugs. Will start training again with the limited time I have left before the run and hope my sickness go away soon. Bla.

Gees

Damn! I felt soooo rejected man.

Not like I wanted to be the student representative. It's like when you and another guy got nominated and then you like have to step outside so those other people will gives votes to both of you, I always have this feeling that I have zero votes while the other guy had the whole class voting for him. I freaking hate it. I know, damn loserish right? I mean, you know what I mean or not? But, oh well, he won, more the reasons for me to think that way.

I think it's just me lar. Fucking sore loser. And to think I want to win something that I don't want. It's like just for the sake of winning. What the Fish. When did I became like this...

Better change that attitude.

I know it's stupid to be writing it out here, for everyone to read. People will be like thinking "yer, what the hell man. What's wrong with this girl?"

But, it's like, I memang don't have secrets. Okay, maybe I do. But, those are the really secret secrets. And I only tell people I trust. People like Victor, Yinnie, Louis, Li Foong. But then, come to think of it, my so called "secrets" aren't that interesting anyway. It's just normal complaints, which I do alot, family stuffs, and weird embarassing moments of me which I don't go around and tell people cause I know those people can handle my negativity cause I know they are pro. Not much of a "I'm-actually-married" kind of big ass secrets. And I am able to name those people out cause I know they will forgot what I told them anyway so it's a waste of time asking them what's up with my life. I know Yinnie will be like "Nothing la. Still being herself." Cause actually ah, she terlupa what I told her the other day.

Maybe I should be more like Jess, secretive and mysterious. Even all the food buddies don't know much about her.

Shits. Am rambling again.

Freaking sick la. Nose block like mad, can't even smell anything. And as Wan Ee knows best, I eat more when I'm sick, just like her. I think we are weird. But oh well, that's why we love each other. Haha. Eat damn alot. It's like I need all the energy generated from those food, seeing I'm super weak now. Can't even lug my usual stack of books. Argh.

And my throat aches la. Cough too much. My head aches too. And being in Wisma HELP ain't helping, the classrooms are freaking cold! Even with long sleeves and shawl doesn't help giving me warmth. Was curling into a big fat ball (-__-") during Management class today while everyone was watching Gungho (yes, it's a movie) in the dark.

And being sick actually made me lie down more, I mean, doh. And the problem is, I could only lie, but couldn't fall asleep. The stupid cough keeps me awake. So, I have been thinking about stuffs. I remember telling Victor about me trying to find myself, seeing that I keep having this weird feeling, like being confused like that la. Don't know who I am, how to behave anymore. He told me that it's a phrase, said I'm growing up, time to turn mature, blablabla.

Maybe he's right. But I'm kinda having doubts now.

I think that I'm damn different in UEL classes with the new classmates if compared to how I treat my HMC friends. But then, I realised that I treat my HMC friends differently than how I am to my basketball friends and high school friends.

Hmmmm. Mr Raj is right. We all do wear masks and we keep changing masks everytime. Some people don't even know their original face when they are mask-less. Well, that includes me. I hate it la.

But no worries, I finally decided to depend on my mood to be behind whichever mask it is. But, it's also bad la. People won't know how I really am anymore. I will be even lost right?

Shrugs. I don't want to use my brain d la. Head damn pain!!!!!! (*@#)#)*!)&#&!)(@&#

Owh! Tomorrow's a Thursday! It's windows wiping day! Zzzzzzz... I shall postpone it to Friday, seeing I have classes on Thursdays now. Pfft.

And I better stop eating now man. What the fuck. Damn fat d la. Argh. I STILL NEED TO PURCHASE A FREAKING CLINCHER TO MATCH THAT STUPID TOP! But that woman from Vibrant Swirls have yet to reply me. Whatever la. If she's not replying that I shall buy it from someone else who WILL reply me. Gees, such an attention seeker I am. But, when I asked for measurements, at least give me an answer right? This is not my fault. This is call... uh, something I learn in Business la. Consumers something.

Oh. Trekathon is this Saturday! I better get better by then man! Got the Sports Carnival shirt d. DAMN UGLY LO! Seriously. OMG! The shade of blue is okay. But the design ah, sorry to say la, quite the terrible. Not like I'm any better la. But then ah... aiyo, damn ugly la. Some more the material, it's sports la, at least use cotton la. No one asked for jersey material anyway. And I believe cotton is much cheaper right? Haiyoh.

Damn! No time to train. STUPID SICKNESS, FUCKING GO AWAY WILL YOU? I got Orange Run the week after next some more. Then, Power Run a week after Orange Run. EH, Alric and Janson, are you all still joining, I don't see/hear about you 2 going trainings already!

Shits man. I got like 1 week plus until my assignment is due. Shit. And I have not even start anything. I'm so dead like seriously. CHOI CHOI! Better start now. Before I go to bed at midnight. I shall get at least some info I need. Argh. And Mr Raj was like saying "It's good that you all start weeks before right? Imagine you start now, you are going to die man"

VERY HELPFUL MAN! Cause when he said that, I was like... "shits. I don't have to imagine. I AM in that condition" Gawd!

Anyway, I stayed back a lil later in Main Block just now. Not like I have anyone to see there d la. Been nice of Joshua and some others to come and have a chat. But, it's so not like last time anymore. The only people I really really am close with in HMC are like Debra, Ally, Mr. Loh (haha)... that's all. Gosh. And yea, sometimes just hang out with Janson and Alric outside of college la, once in a while in college, that's it T___T

So anywayyyy, I stayed back to meet John Khor, some long lost friend of mine, who ain't lost anymore since 2 weeks ago when I bumped into him at the study area near the toilet before the corridor. He's from A-Levels la, so it's not surprising to bump into each other.

So, I was thinking of catching up with him again today, so I asked him over to the same place to study again. It's fun talking to him, cause usually he will be the one doing most of the talking. HAHAHA! Joke la. But, it's true in a sense. Spent a good one hour talking instead of studying -_-" He's like one of the people I know who I can sit comfortably with and talk about anything. JOHN, IF YOU ARE READING THIS, KEEP IN MIND YOU STILL OWE ME AN ICE CREAM! Hah! Joke la. I can buy my own ice creams.

Gosh! I'm like seriously ranting leee. If you are actually reading this, you have alot of patience and time lor.

Okay. So I was reading Janson and Yinnie's blog. Their latest entry actually have something related to dreams. Okay la. Janson's entry memang about dreams. So, I was having this weird dream la the other night. Couldn't remember about what. But I do remember that Jia Huey is in it. And she was wearing some blue blouse with puffy sleeves and a white skirt. Woot! HAHAHHA! I never seen her in a skirt before okay? A gown, yala, in Annual Ball. But no skirts, not even in high school, she's always in baju kurung -_-"

But, who am I to say? I myself don't wear skirts anyway, but at least I do in high school. Just that I don't wear baju kurung only ma. Seeing that wearing my prefects uniform (buttoned blouse and skirt) is more convenient as I will just play basketball in it straight after school anyway. I know damn sakai la. But, WAN EE DOES IT ALSO! So, I sakai, she also sakai la. We together-gether sakai. Lalala~

Shits. I miss that old woman.

Argh. BETTER START ON MY ASSIGNMENT LATER MAN! And who said to not procrastinate anymore ah?

Have some DESCO meeting tomorrow. Bla. Finally can meet that Gene fella. Keep setting appointment and somehow couldn't actually meet him. Not my fault! Not his neither. Just somehow la.

Okay. I have rant too much. Sorry sorry. Now I shall go shit. Ate too much bananas -___-"

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?

Okay, apparently I got to know this guy through Kakiis.com.my's Movie Mania contest. He super kiasu mannnnn... from the score of 1K plus, slightly higher than mine, he replayed until he reached a WTFKNNBBQ score of 7K plus. CRAZY!

Anyway, he's Wei Siong. Never met him before but I know he stays around. Quite cute (is very subjective since I claimed that all my friends are cute, you're my friend, you're cute!) so he wanna know my other cute girl friends too.

Actually met him through Facebook before this, but really talked to him through Kakiis.com.my, oh well... Friends get connected maaaa. OMG! Gees, I'm like so advertising for kakiis.com.my. I better get those 10 tickets man. *starts praying*

Ogehhhh (shits, start learning from Victor on his way of saying OK), anyway, I read this Wei Siong guy's blog. Gila babi wtf. Not another one?????

Apparently he always got himself free movie passes, premier screening. OMG! And I thought I only got Louis Yap as a friend who always get all these, now I got another one as a friend to be jealous of! PFFT!

ME WANT TO GET THESE MOVIE PASSES TOO!!!!

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Okay. I mean, Ogeh. I'm fucking sick now. Nose block. Cough. Sore throat. Aching all over. Better go sleep la deng. Argh. So effing cold, can't even on air-con, all these idiotic mosquitoes keep flying around.

DIE YOU PESTS! DIE!

Ogeh. Me have to TRY and find an article for my assignment. At least one larh. Have been given 5 weeks to do this assignment and I'm only starting it now after 4 weeks. Pro la you Khai Sim, told you to stop procrastinating d lor.

Ladida

Lookey what I've got here!!!

Hahahahahaha.

Sleeping Beauty (WTF?) Picture 1

@ Janson's room

Picture 2

@ College Corridor

I have a few more but am just too lazy to upload them. Blah. Haha, I can just start a photo collection of Alric sleeping. Lol.

No wonder people tells me that he can sleep anywhere. And he comes and tell me that he is sleep deprived -_-"

Anyway, made chocolate truffles again! This time with Jess at her place after a visit to her church.

It's easy to differentiate the ones I made and the ones Jess made.
Hers are filled with flakes... while mine are just the coloured sprinkles, I buried the flakes IN the truffles okay!

The BIG one is for Cass! Haha.

I especially love this kind of weather when the sun is all shiny gold and eventhough it coloured the whole sky a soft touch of yellow, it's not even hot or humid. You know la, you get this kind of weather sometimes in the evening.

And even better, it was windy that time I took these pictures. Made me wanna go out again. I have been locking myself in the room browsing through online boutiques and wasting my time away. No wonder I'm getting fatter by the day.

Anyway, it got me out to the court again. Gawd. I think I have to come to the court more often. Yen was like greeting me with a "Long time no see". Ben was teasing me about being pregnant... zzzzzzz. I think I really gained weight d la. Pfft.

Will start picking up sports again. My stamina is terrible now man! Am gonna join the college's trekathon and Orange Run this coming weeks. Got Alric, Adrian, Janson, Jack, Kevin, Kenneth and some others to join with me already. But sad thing is there ain't any girls who wanna join with me. Pfft. Anyway, these runs actually worked as a target for me to go trainings. Been to Kiara Hill with Alric and Janson last few days to jog. Alric damn dissapointing man.

Oh! Speaking of Kiara Hill, Alric and I got robbed last Wednesday. Wtf. Not really a face-to-face encounter la. We left our stuffs in the car and when we came back our cash got stolen. Omg. Luckily those stupid people couldn't find my phone and they left my purse, just took the cash.

Gees. I thank God for that. But the thought of them being able to access Alric's locked car makes me worry. I don't know how they did it laaa.

Okay. I know I'm like crapping here. But just felt like blogging again now la. Jia Huey and Louis and Jess were like saying how dead is my blog recently. Nah, revived d la. But might be dead again after this entry. Wahahhaa.

Haih. Got plenty of assignments to do and I'm not starting yet. 3 weeks passed d ok? I better really stop procrastinating!!!!!!!! Summore I'm gonna try to run for secretary again for student council in my degree department. Speaking of student council, Wth, I still have not got my recognition letter/ cert/ wtv from HMC for being in the student council last year. Didn't even get anything after all those stress! Wth. Okay la, I'm quite thankful for joining la actually, I got to meet plenty of people, made new friends, had much fun, all those tears (ahem, Vic) and laughters (ahem, Christine) and other emotions la. Really appreciate all those experiences.

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Speaking of curiculum activities, should I help out for the PR work for the HELP's guys basketball team? Basically do all those stupid sponsorship work and other stuffs la. Li Foong said it's better to have a female approach in these stuffs. And I pity them la if they don't get any sponsorships.

But, I will be pitying myself when I start pulling my hair due to the stress. I might even get bald! AHHHHHHHHHH! I DON'T WANNA BE LIKE LOUIS!

Wait. He's not even bald now anymore! -_-"

Gah. And I'm like so into shopping nowadays. There's a bazaar in Subang tomorrow~~ Gonna go with Li Foong and Angelina straight after my class. Hahaha. Yayyyy!

Gosh. Money ain't made of water, Khai Sim! Shrugs.

=(

Jack! Don't be sad weih... Haih. You sounding depressed is making me depressed also k?????

Pfft. So much of a welcoming yum char session. Thought all of us can get together again like the old times. Chilling la.

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Anyway, to whoever who is happy with their SPM results, congrats!

And to those who aren't, it's okay. You still have Pre-U and degree to worry about xD

I'm pro!

Gees. I actually forgot to go sleep...

And it's 6.30am already! To think I have basketball at 7.30am with Ah Yen and the rest of the people, don't know which people, cause don't know who else Yen called. Damn hero lar me. No need to sleep. Asyik tengok Korean drama je. Belum start buat assignments jugak.

And one of them is due this Wednesday!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

The other three are tough work too. HAIH! Why lar Khai Sim? WHY LA?

Hmpf. Here's what I shall do. When I get up, go basketball court to continue sleeping instead of playing, then breakfast, then a teeny-weeny bit more of Korean drama. Then I shall start on my assignments! WOOOOOT! Must at least finish the one which is due this Wednesday!

Gambatte! Can do it wan!!!

Argh. Having headache now. Better have some shut eye for 1 hour before I go for basketball... Better sms Ah Yen to give me a morning call again. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ... YAWN~

Pfft

And I am still procrastinating! Damn. Am supposed to work on my assignment, end up watching "The House Bunny" again...

-_-"

Well, at least that movie lifted my mood...

And it's been so nice to watch that show again.

So nice.